Sunday, March 20, 2005
I've gone to the synagogue these past two weeks on Friday night. I went with Dave, but we couldn't sit together, so before it started, my first time there, he very kindly took me into a corner with a prayer book and showed me where to read. I followed along all right, only getting lost at the parts where everyone reads to themselves. The service is fairly short--an hour, maybe an hour and a half--and a lot of it is strangely familiar to me, except for the fact that it's all in Hebrew. Part of it comes from the Psalms--92 through 99, or something like that--which I find, in an odd way, truly comforting. These are Psalms I used to memorize (in English of course) and say out loud in bed, on long walks, in airplanes, when I was happy, or sad, or anxious. Psalm 96 especially. It has a strange effect on me when I hear it sung in Hebrew. It makes me feel thick and liquid inside. There's no explaining it, but there it is. It makes me miss and miss and miss God.